I have some issues in life. i have mental illnesses including paranoia anxiety and depression. i've worked at UPS for almost 2 years now. i haven't had much trouble in that time. but there's a new batch of noob loaders in the hub, and i have to work with them. they're terrible at their job, but the pt supervisor is letting them have my truck because she wants them to get faster....so I'm stuck in the noob trailer while the noobs do a terrible job in mine. that by itself i can handle. but now they're talking to me. normally, i'd just beat the out of them to teach them respect and that would be that. but i need this job, so i can't do that. i'm so angry because i've been nothing but nice to them. they keep pushing and pushing and pushing. even when i try to show kindness to them. remembering someones sweater in the truck and making sure to take it out for them before it gets loaded even after they're being so rude to me. i've been here 2 years. they've been here 2 months. they seem to think its the other way around. i try to just tell myself that they're just stupid. i work in a hub with a bunch of white guys but im black. i don't know. maybe i just look for people to be racist towards me because of that but really theres no reason they should be so rude to me. i've tried to help them with everything. teaching them how to load better or making a better wall. telling them things about the hub that they should know. and they just keep pushing. i've had no problems with any of the other white people there. just these new kids. one was in mma so i guess he has a power addiction over other people or something. and i think hes the one whos got even people who have been my friends up here to talk . its really upsetting. i don't want to snitch on them and that wouldn't solve anything anyway. all i want is to go somewhere else and avoid them as much as possible before they piss me off too far and i hurt them very badly. i've never felt so angry in my life. i've never felt so close to wanting to kill someone. and i've never felt like i couldn't control myself. but somehow they do it to me. does anyone have any ideas on how i can get them to stop or how i can get the supervisors to move me somewhere else?