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Rigorous honesty. "On topic" please.
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<blockquote data-quote="bbsam" data-source="post: 3587430" data-attributes="member: 22662"><p>Rigorous honesty. </p><p></p><p>I am familiar with it as a term straight out of AA having to do with self examination and one’s own culpability in any unpleasant situation.</p><p></p><p>Struggling with it right now as a matter of fact.</p><p></p><p>I’m at a nationwide youth church gathering that has not gone as planned since before we left on the 1100 mile journey to Houston. Major letdown by two chaperones backing out at the last minute. Two people that I held in the highest esteem until last Thursday. They even had relatively good reasons.</p><p></p><p>But now I’m consumed with hate and rage and vindictiveness about last week to the extent that nothing else matters. I know I’m responsible for my own emotions and actions but right now I don’t <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/group1/censored2.gif" class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":censored2:" title="Censored2 :censored2:" data-shortname=":censored2:" />ing care. Once I’m reimbursed for the van rental and the fuel I’ll probably never have another thing to do with any of them. I don’t even really care about the money. Just seems like the coldest way to make a clean break.</p><p></p><p>And here’s the rigorous honesty part. I don’t want to do it. It crushes me to do it but being so consumed with self righteousness and pride I can’t let go. It’s a strange self destruction that I’m walking into with a twisted enjoyment. Something’s gonna happen, it’s gonna be bad.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="bbsam, post: 3587430, member: 22662"] Rigorous honesty. I am familiar with it as a term straight out of AA having to do with self examination and one’s own culpability in any unpleasant situation. Struggling with it right now as a matter of fact. I’m at a nationwide youth church gathering that has not gone as planned since before we left on the 1100 mile journey to Houston. Major letdown by two chaperones backing out at the last minute. Two people that I held in the highest esteem until last Thursday. They even had relatively good reasons. But now I’m consumed with hate and rage and vindictiveness about last week to the extent that nothing else matters. I know I’m responsible for my own emotions and actions but right now I don’t :censored:ing care. Once I’m reimbursed for the van rental and the fuel I’ll probably never have another thing to do with any of them. I don’t even really care about the money. Just seems like the coldest way to make a clean break. And here’s the rigorous honesty part. I don’t want to do it. It crushes me to do it but being so consumed with self righteousness and pride I can’t let go. It’s a strange self destruction that I’m walking into with a twisted enjoyment. Something’s gonna happen, it’s gonna be bad. [/QUOTE]
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