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<blockquote data-quote="El Correcto" data-source="post: 5303080" data-attributes="member: 60631">I really do appreciate the <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/group1/censored2.gif"&nbsp; class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":censored2:" title="Censored2&nbsp; &nbsp; :censored2:" data-shortname=":censored2:" /> you people have put up from me.Looking at my personality over the years with you guys has helped me realize my version of coming out of the closet was nothing more than being a respect hungry self aware gay man looking for a fight at every opportunity. I don’t hate you people, I hate myself and don’t respect myself over this.Everytime I came out to someone in my life who I knew thought gays were gross and mentally ill I was looking for nothing more than an opportunity for more self destruction and none of them gave it to me. Think that’s why I enjoy our flame wars so much. But the flame wars gotta end and I gotta get in therapy before I end up finding other self destructive outlets.I’m still pretty deeply closeted because I hide my gayness when I know it’s not a good time to punch someone in the face or get in a screaming war with them. You guys have just been a punching bag for that and I’ve been a piece of <img src="/community/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/group1/censored2.gif"&nbsp; class="smilie" loading="lazy" alt=":censored2:" title="Censored2&nbsp; &nbsp; :censored2:" data-shortname=":censored2:" /> over the years.Edit: well more like my entire teen and adult life.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="El Correcto, post: 5303080, member: 60631"] I really do appreciate the :censored: you people have put up from me. Looking at my personality over the years with you guys has helped me realize my version of coming out of the closet was nothing more than being a respect hungry self aware gay man looking for a fight at every opportunity. I don’t hate you people, I hate myself and don’t respect myself over this. Everytime I came out to someone in my life who I knew thought gays were gross and mentally ill I was looking for nothing more than an opportunity for more self destruction and none of them gave it to me. Think that’s why I enjoy our flame wars so much. But the flame wars gotta end and I gotta get in therapy before I end up finding other self destructive outlets. I’m still pretty deeply closeted because I hide my gayness when I know it’s not a good time to punch someone in the face or get in a screaming war with them. You guys have just been a punching bag for that and I’ve been a piece of :censored: over the years. Edit: well more like my entire teen and adult life. [/QUOTE]

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