here it goes..........
okay so I finished Intergrad via zoom for 3 days and I was told I would have a chance to drive days 4 and 5 and get to use the diad. I even had to fill out a questionnaire asking if I got to drive etc. which I didn't. I rode with someone the 5th day and he wouldn't really let me help him and only let me use the diad once. The following Tuesday I was suppose to start my packet but my supervisor called out sick for basically the whole week, and was told I would start next Tuesday the Friday of that week, so I didn't get to work all that week as well. I was on the local sort for a few months before I signed up to be a 22.4 and was a seasonal delivery driver helper before that this last peak. I was already feeling super anxious about the driving cause I know they expect a lot from you and I know my 5's and 10's and was hoping I would have gotten a little practice by doing the driver drill and whatever else they make you do at intergrad days 4, and 5. I thought you had to pass the driver drill to get started on your packet. I would rather just failed if It wasn't meant to be during practice than have to go through the stress of learning everything and getting yelled at for every little mistake I make. Anyways yesterday was my first day driving cause I started my packet this week, and rode with other people two days before this and I was told I would drive 50 percent of the day. My supervisor drove for like 20 mins than wanted me to drive. I drove and was nervous of course like im sure most people are but didn't think I was doing that bad you obviously have to get used to making wide turns and the way the truck handles. Well he wanted me to go faster and suggested he drive so we could get caught up. So I let him and basically got dq'd for that. I would have drove the whole time if I would've known it was gonna screw me. He said it was normal and promised me he would make sure I made it with his help etc. Idk and he kept freaking out when I would make little mistakes and it just through me off my game. I know that its a really hard job and not for everyone, but I feel like if I would have gotten the two days of driving during intergrad and not had someone yelling at me I would have done fine. I wanted to quit yesterday because it was too much. I don't even really want to be a driver anymore but if I change my mind Id like to have another chance with a different supervisor. Am I being dramatic or do you think I should have gotten to drive at least a little bit before starting my packet? And is this something I can grieve and win? sorry if I don't make sense..... I know now why all the shifters that use to be drivers don't ever want to drive again lol they expect a lot from you guys. I was really upset this morning but i feel better now and I understand the supervisor was doing his job but I feel like I would have done fine if there was a different approach to the training. I'm also a girl so maybe i'm just a crybaby idk
okay so I finished Intergrad via zoom for 3 days and I was told I would have a chance to drive days 4 and 5 and get to use the diad. I even had to fill out a questionnaire asking if I got to drive etc. which I didn't. I rode with someone the 5th day and he wouldn't really let me help him and only let me use the diad once. The following Tuesday I was suppose to start my packet but my supervisor called out sick for basically the whole week, and was told I would start next Tuesday the Friday of that week, so I didn't get to work all that week as well. I was on the local sort for a few months before I signed up to be a 22.4 and was a seasonal delivery driver helper before that this last peak. I was already feeling super anxious about the driving cause I know they expect a lot from you and I know my 5's and 10's and was hoping I would have gotten a little practice by doing the driver drill and whatever else they make you do at intergrad days 4, and 5. I thought you had to pass the driver drill to get started on your packet. I would rather just failed if It wasn't meant to be during practice than have to go through the stress of learning everything and getting yelled at for every little mistake I make. Anyways yesterday was my first day driving cause I started my packet this week, and rode with other people two days before this and I was told I would drive 50 percent of the day. My supervisor drove for like 20 mins than wanted me to drive. I drove and was nervous of course like im sure most people are but didn't think I was doing that bad you obviously have to get used to making wide turns and the way the truck handles. Well he wanted me to go faster and suggested he drive so we could get caught up. So I let him and basically got dq'd for that. I would have drove the whole time if I would've known it was gonna screw me. He said it was normal and promised me he would make sure I made it with his help etc. Idk and he kept freaking out when I would make little mistakes and it just through me off my game. I know that its a really hard job and not for everyone, but I feel like if I would have gotten the two days of driving during intergrad and not had someone yelling at me I would have done fine. I wanted to quit yesterday because it was too much. I don't even really want to be a driver anymore but if I change my mind Id like to have another chance with a different supervisor. Am I being dramatic or do you think I should have gotten to drive at least a little bit before starting my packet? And is this something I can grieve and win? sorry if I don't make sense..... I know now why all the shifters that use to be drivers don't ever want to drive again lol they expect a lot from you guys. I was really upset this morning but i feel better now and I understand the supervisor was doing his job but I feel like I would have done fine if there was a different approach to the training. I'm also a girl so maybe i'm just a crybaby idk
