Greetings my fellow Brownies! My name is Matt and I have just passed my 90 day probationary period within Preload. Being that this is my introductory posting(my 1st) it is my top priority that I tell you a bit about myself. I do this within every forum for which I am involved. I do so that people will be aware ahead of time that I call things as I see them realistically. I am sure that many of you are of the same school of thought so I am only hoping that I am in the same company(no pun intended). I have an honest question that I need answered. First a few statements, then the question. I am in the midst of paying a $350 Union initiation fee. They are garnishing up to $45 per paycheck. I started at $9.85 an hour and have now seen a $1 raise thereby lifting my pay rate to $10.85. I live 14 miles from work of which is an uphill drive daily(more gas required to tackle the hill). I am claiming (3) dependents 'only' as a means of getting the most out of each check. I am getting anywhere between 21 and 23 1/2 hours per week. My only bills in this world are $45 a month(phone), $65 a month(auto insurance), $250-$300 a month(food) and GAS. That's it. What I do in the morning(loading 4 trucks) takes everything that my 40 year old bones have got energetically. I don't have much left over to take up a second part-time job. I just don't have it. I wish I did. So... being that I now have (2) of my guns in the pawn shop and (2) of my guitars in the pawn shop because I literally do not make THE GAS that it takes to get to work. I am repeatedly told that this benefits package within my hands is worth so much $$$$$$ and that it needs to be considered in the Big Picture. Now... The Question: Can someone within this forum tell me that this is all worth it somehow? Signed, Living in a cardboard box with a handsome benefits package for the next two years should I choose to stay.